Thursday, 31 October 2013

Long Time No Blog


Hello Internet,

I realised two days ago that it had been so long since I last blogged, I am sorry, I am such a bad little blogger at the minute. I am trying to think up some excuses as to why I haven't blogged.

I have been trying to learn a TEDx talk which I performed on Tuesday night around the concept of body confidence in young people and how it is squashed by so many unrealistic ideals. I applaud people who regularly get up on stage because my nerves were through the roof, I can natter on for ages with someone in a coffee shop but talking on a stage terrifies me, but here I am anyway:

Photo by @Manikambo
I've also been script editing, so at least I have been being a good writer somewhere, just not on here! I have written a play which is going on in Leeds as part of Slung Low Theatre Group's 15 Minutes Live. The plays are to be performed live on stage infornt of an audience to be recorded for radio. The play I have written Just Like Heaven follows two friends on a journey of loneliness, loss and love with the help of a bit of music.

SECRET. I have a new script idea which I am trying to formulate but shhhhhh, I'm scared of ruining it.

That'll do for now, essays to be writing!

Hannah x

Thursday, 17 October 2013

Cheating is Wrong



I don't understand why people think it is acceptable to cheat in a relationship. Like seriously what is going through their pea-sized brain when they think that that is acceptable. It is things like these that make me angry at humanity. How can people even do things like this and expect people to ever treat them with respect again when they have rejected their partner in the worst way possible? If you aren't happy in a relationship end it; stop messing with people's feelings. What annoys me even more is when people do it when there are children involved? Why reject one person when you can act like your entire family don't matter. Idiots. I'm usually all for forgiveness but this is definitely a difficult one. Lies anger me. 

Monday, 14 October 2013

The Bell Jar


This weekend I went to a book group on Sylvia Plath's The Bell Jar. I have not read The Bell Jar. This should have been a ridiculous idea but it was actually really interesting to get people's views on it before I read it AND I wasn't the only person who hadn't read it.

So, in the workshop I read the first three pages of The Bell Jar and concluded that Esther isn't overly cheery. Someone brought up the idea of feminism, if I'm honest I didn't really see a feminist issue on these three pages. Yes, Esther acknowledges that women had few opportunities at this time but the fact is she had opportunity, the issue is the fact she doesn't care about the opportunities. Nout to do with being a woman. She had big opportunities but was too depressed to appreciate them, yes?

"I felt very still and very empty"

Obviously, at this point I have only read a tiny part of the book but I am honestly not seeing the feminist issue others seemed to also at this point. I'm seeing depression is capital letters. This is a person who has lots of things she should be enjoying but isn't, take out the pronouns and would you be picking up on the same things? I don't understand the need to make feminist issues out of gender neutral circumstances, people get depressed and at this point in the novel there is no reason to think it is a result of oppression.

For the record I am a feminist and I am now reading The Bell Jar.

Hannah :)

Sunday, 13 October 2013

Writing Community



I feel I've abandoned my blog again, SORRY! This weekend was Durham Book Festival so I've been a busy writing bee!

I'm so very thankful for New Writing North and the Cuckoo Young Writers programs for their continued support of my writing development. I'm not sure I would have kept up writing without their input because it is so easy to just give up if you haven't got anyone telling you it is worth it and this weekend has made me see that it definitely is worth it at the minute. On Friday night I performed (I am definitely a writer and not a performer) and it was nice to get feedback from people. It surprises me every time someone gives me a positive comment about my writing, I generally assume the things I write are pants so I am genuinely grateful for the people that encourage me to continue writing. Your encouragement makes a difference.

It was just nice to spend time with like-minded young people, people who share the same struggles with their writing and people with passion for writing. I have concluded that just because you don't shout from the rooftops it doesn't make your opinion redundant; it makes you considerate and it means you understand that's not the way it works.

I have had a nice weekend and I feel like a real writer again. That can only be a good thing.


Sunday, 6 October 2013

I am not a Vegetarian


I feel I should start this by clarifying the fact I am not a vegetarian. I both like and eat meat.

When I think about the concept of being a vegetarian I wonder why I'm not one; I wouldn't say I was particularly enthusiastic about animal rights I just think the fact we eat animals is a little bit weird. Like why is it culturally acceptable to eat some animals but not others, where did this come from. Making burgers out of cow = YAY! Making burgers out of cats, not so acceptable. So why can you eat cows? I am aware cow tastes nice, I am quite a fan of burgers but I also ate a mushroom burger recently which was really nice, as in instead of the beef there was mushroom instead.

I am told from a valid source (maybe not, they are vegetarian) that I do not necessarily need to eat meat to get all of my protein needs. It has been drilled into me that kale is brilliant, well, I don't like kale but spinach is even higher in protein and I am a spinach enthusiast! And according to my googling my mushroom burger may have contained more overall protein than a beef burger would have, who'd have thought it? So I'm not sure how I feel about people saying that vegetarianism isn't healthy, because lets me honest, there are lots of unhealthy not vegetarians so I reckon if you're gonna be a healthy person the fact that you eat meat or not doesn't really come into it.

Moving on from that I have some reservations about milk but only if I think about it too much. It just feels weird to drink when I think about it. If cows were the dominant species would they drink our milk (I don't know how that works for the record)? Like drinking another animals milk is just bizarre but if I don't think about it I can stomach it. I buy almond soy milk in the house but if I'm out I have no problem drinking "regular milk", I wouldn't specifically ask for soy milk because I don't think about it when I'm eating out, I assume that's because I don't actually pour it and see it so it isn't real. I don't buy butter but that is mainly because I don't particularly like it yet when I'm out, again, I'm not fussed about eating it. As for cheese, I love cheese and there is no escaping that. Cheddar, emmental, brie, feta, mozzarella, wensleydale, stilton. All cheese is good cheese.

Taking away the animal bit of vegetarianism, I just think it would be a lot easier for me to be what I call a "practical vegetarian". When I eat out I will eat meat because someone else is cooking it, however in the house it is easier to be a vegetarian. I am a very busy person and half of the time I can't keep track of my own diary so never know when I am going to be in or not therefore I never know whether or not to defrost meat, this is not an issue if you eat meat substitute because it doesn't need defrosting. Problem solved.

Practical vegetarianism is definitely the way forward. As for my mild milk complex, I have no idea what is going on with that. As for vegetarians, I think they just think more than the rest of us and that is not a bad thing. I am on the fence about the whole thing so when I start thinking more I will probably end up being a vegetarian.

Hannah x

Thursday, 3 October 2013

Wendy Cope Is Brilliant


I am not a fan of fanny about poetry; like honestly there is just no need for it most of the time. Contemporary poetry is definitely the way forward and if you are going to read any contemporary poet read Wendy Cope. Wendy Cope is brilliant! Serious Concerns is an epic anthology; I advise reading Bloody Men but my favourite of all Wendy Cope poems is Some Light Verse:
Some More Light Verse

You have to try. You see the shrink.
You learn a lot. You read. You think.
You struggle to improve your looks.
You meet some men. You write some books.
You eat good food. You give up junk.
You do not smoke. You don’t get drunk.
You take up yoga, walk and swim.
And nothing works. The outlook’s grim.
You don’t know what to do. You cry.
You’re running out of things to try.
You blow your nose. You see the shrink.
You walk. You give up food and drink.
You fall in love. You make a plan.
You struggle to improve your man.
And nothing works. The outlooks grim.
You go to yoga, cry and swim.
You eat and drink. You give up looks.
You struggle to improve your books.
You cannot see the point. You sigh.
You do not smoke. You have to try.
I am not going to witter about the poem and pretend I believe in pulling apart people's work to find out about them. I just love it in the moment I read it and I don't want to feel or understand anything more of its brilliance.
You have to try.
Hannah x