Sunday, 4 May 2014

Happy Sunday


I am feeling really happy today, I feel like I've had a massive breakthrough in my life this week which has came on the back of what felt like a domino effect of bad luck.

Lately I've been asking myself why things keep going wrong for me, this week I made a conscious decision that that would change. I need to stop victimising myself over everything that happens to me. Acting like a victim won't get me any further forward, acting like a fighter will. For that reason I am fighting for everything I want out of my life. I'm a one of those people who does what they think they are 'supposed to do'. That's all about to change, I'm going to start doing what I want. I am vowing to be unapologetically selfish for a little while.

I have spent way too much time crying recently, I'm just sick of being sad, I am now actively seeking the things that make me happy, one of which being climbing on a mountain. I'm working on doing one soon, as soon as I find someone willing to come with me.

This week, I did however cry with happiness because my granda was so cute. Bit of back story, my grandparents are in their 80s, my grandma has had two heart attacks, triple heart bypass surgery and a stroke. Despite this her and my grandad walk around Saltwell Park everyday, they're still mega fit but they don't go very far. A couple of weeks ago they randomly went to Yorkshire which really surprised me but I thought nothing of it until the other day. My granda was driving me home and he said to me "I was so excited when your grandma said we could go to Richmond, we've barely been anywhere since she had her stroke four years ago", he then went on to tell me how impressed he was that she let them get the bus somewhere because she's usually nervous about being in crowds of people. Then he comes out with the fact she wants to go to the Lake District for the day but he's gutted because they can't really go for the day because it's too far. This was all too cute and I was crying by the time I got into the house.

I read something on Pinterest the other day that said something along the lines of healing doesn't mean the damage never existed it means the damage no longer rules your life. I keep thinking back to that and I've decided that it's a good way to look at things. Bad days don't equate to a bad life so bad things happening to you doesn't mean you should have to live by them. It is virtually impossible to control most things that happen to you in your life however you can control how you respond to the things that happen to you. You can choose to fight the bad things, fight the negativity with positivity about the future.

Positive Quotes For Life: Take time to do what makes your soul happy

Now that I am writing this on the internet I have to do it.

I am making time in my life to do the things I want to do and do the things that make me happy in the hope that they will get me to a good place in the future!

It is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so deeply.

Hannah x


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